Today in my devotion the verse, Philippians 4:13 " I can do all things though Him who gives me strength" spoke to me in ways different then before.
I have heard and memorized this verse for what seems like all my life. I was raised in a christian home and went to a christian school for most of my school aged life. Some times it was just a process, others it brought meaning. None though have compared to what it has meant to me in the past two years.
All my adult life when I did a lot in a day like move or walk all day at an amusement park, my right leg would hurt. I always past it off as a sore muscle. My last three pregnancy that pain got worse till I had each of my princesses, but the last two, it seemed never to go away, I had pain at some level. My husband by then was working for a Neurosurgeon and kept on telling me that it was my back. I never had it checked out while in California, but after our move to Tyler, Texas and the pain was getting over a 5 pain level every day, he sent me to one of the doctors he works with. We found out that I had a rare spine defect that had been there since birth. With that there was a sack of spinal fluid in my spine that had been compressing my S1 and L5 nerves on my right side causing me severe leg pain. I went from a 24/7 on the go sports mom to living each day on what I did by how much I hurt that afternoon.
I have had to come to the realization that I needed to really draw on God's strength to see me through each day as the best I could be on that day. There have been days that I have just wanted to crumble. Today was one them, but I always go back to saying over and over again that God is my strength. Each day is a challenge, there is not only one but several. I could choose to live in self pity and poor me attitudes or I can choose to listen to Gods word that He is the strength, to lean on Him, let Him carry me in my everyday journey.
I will continue on with my story on another day.
Lanette
I have heard and memorized this verse for what seems like all my life. I was raised in a christian home and went to a christian school for most of my school aged life. Some times it was just a process, others it brought meaning. None though have compared to what it has meant to me in the past two years.
All my adult life when I did a lot in a day like move or walk all day at an amusement park, my right leg would hurt. I always past it off as a sore muscle. My last three pregnancy that pain got worse till I had each of my princesses, but the last two, it seemed never to go away, I had pain at some level. My husband by then was working for a Neurosurgeon and kept on telling me that it was my back. I never had it checked out while in California, but after our move to Tyler, Texas and the pain was getting over a 5 pain level every day, he sent me to one of the doctors he works with. We found out that I had a rare spine defect that had been there since birth. With that there was a sack of spinal fluid in my spine that had been compressing my S1 and L5 nerves on my right side causing me severe leg pain. I went from a 24/7 on the go sports mom to living each day on what I did by how much I hurt that afternoon.
I have had to come to the realization that I needed to really draw on God's strength to see me through each day as the best I could be on that day. There have been days that I have just wanted to crumble. Today was one them, but I always go back to saying over and over again that God is my strength. Each day is a challenge, there is not only one but several. I could choose to live in self pity and poor me attitudes or I can choose to listen to Gods word that He is the strength, to lean on Him, let Him carry me in my everyday journey.
I will continue on with my story on another day.
Lanette
well done lanette. you give new meaning to the word courageous. you are a blessing to all you come into contact with as the love of God shines thru you. it is always evident on where your strength comes from. i am so proud to see you and where you are in your life. you never cease to amaze me, and i miss you very, very much.
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